Crying

I think it's taken me until the month I'll be turning 20 to actually realize that there's nothing wrong with crying.

I always heard people say it, but somehow it never sunk in.

Maybe it's because my dad always tried to make me feel worse for crying as a child... whenever I would cry, I would start thinking about how I was crying... and feel like it was a way of giving up... and just keep on feeling worse and worse from the point I started crying. It was always a downward spiral.

But at some point that changed, because now I actually feel better after crying. I don't even remember exactly when the change took place; I just know that it had to have been sometime relatively recently.

Did I say the word "crying" enough times in this post? Crying. Crying.

Crying.

:D